I try to keep everything pretty positive around here. I generally have a positive but realistic attitude about life in general.
I haven’t yet began to dive I to my fertility issues here, but today, I’m going to jump ahead a little.
Two weeks ago, I went in to speak with my RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist, a doctor who specialize in fertility) about her analysis of my current situation after some tests and information form my surgeon. She gave her thoughts, but the basics were that we should start the process sooner rather than later, and IVF would be the best bet. She ordered a blood test (AMH test) to check my ovarian reserves, (eggs I have left).
Well, today I got my results, and they weren’t that great. My level is at a .6, which is below average for my age.
I am extremely disappointed and sad. I allowed myself to cry for the first time in a long time about my infertility, because it all got a little more real today.
The journey is not over, and I know I will bounce back and keep pushing, but today is just a bad day. It was not the result I was hoping top hear. However, I wouldn’t be true to the purpose of this blog if I didn’t share this experience.
Please visit the following links for a full explanation of AMH testing and how it relates to fertility
And what would a controversial medical device or procedure be without a class action law suit?!
Yup. On my way to work this morning, I heard the “Have you or a family member been diagnosed with cancer or other serious medical complications after a power morcellator procedure for removal of uterine fibroids?! If so, call the law offices of ….” (if you actually want to learn more about this gathering of information for the suit, click here)
I feel like there should have been better research and statistics on the instances of uterine cancers upstaging after any uterine surgery years ago. But, again, fibroid and other uterine disorder research seems to be low on the medical research totem pole. If there were better research and follow up done years ago, and a continuing effort made to understand fibroids, instead of just snatching out uteruses (Uteri? what is the plural of uterus?), some of the controversy may have been prevented. Lives may hev been saved. Why wasn’t some sort of pre screen for cancer (besides an MRI) figured out and made a standard part of pre op testing for myomectomies and hysterectomies of any type? Especially if it is known that MRIs are not effective in finding Uterine Leiomyosarcoma (LMS).
As a woman, the lack of research and information makes me think what MJ said was right….they don’t really care about us (or our uteri).
One of the scariest things about having surgery is that you don’t have any control over what happens, and technically, neither does your doctor. Although everything may seem fine on x-rays or MRIs, and all of your pre op testing could show you’re low risk and everything should go smoothly, on any given procedure, things can go left. The doctor could find more of a problem that s/he expected, or a problem they weren’t anticipating at all. You could have a reaction to some of the anesthesia. Your doctor could make a mistake. Your doctor may depend on the research and information on a particular technique or tool used in surgery, only to find later there are risks and side effects not previously known. We’ve seen this with the DaVinci robot, and now with power morecellation.
A morcellator is a surgical instrument used for division (morcellation) and removal of large masses of tissues during laparoscopic surgery. It can consist of a hollow cylinder that penetrates the abdominal wall, ending with sharp edges or cutting jaws, through which a grasper can be inserted to pull the mass into the cylinder to cut out an extractable piece.
So basically, a bladed, surgical instrument. Morecellators are often used with laparscopic hysterectomies and myomectomies. When the fibroids or the uterus is too large to fit through the small ports, the morcellator cuts everything into smaller pieces and they are sucked up into a tube. Seems reasonable right? Well the problem is that some of the smaller pieces of tissue can spray out into the body. Still, the surgeon must go in with suction and get those stray pieces, right? Sure. Or they can use a containment bag attachment that can help prevent some of the extra spray out of the removed tissue.
The problem is this though: Some women have a “hidden” cancer ( leiomyosarcomas) that cannot be detected until the pathology tests post op. So, little bits of cancerous tissue land on other ares in the body and grow, causing the cancer to become worse. (Upstage. Going from a stage 1 to stage 3 or 4) Now we see the problem.
To be fair and to be clear, the incidents of leiomyosarcomas are very rare, up to 1% of women having fibroid surgery also have cancer. (One study states 1 out of 415 women with fibroids also have leiomyosarcoma)
There has been some debate on the actual numbers of women who have surgeries who also have LMS. Several doctors disagree with the numbers the FDA put out (similar to the ones I’ve stated above) and say the instances are even less.
From the blog of Dr. William Parker-UCLA:
Some gynecologists and major medical centers had been quoting the risk of a woman having surgery for what are thought to be “fibroids” and being found to, in fact, have a leiomyosarcoma (LMS) as 1 woman out of 10,000. However, this number is incorrect. The rate of 1 in 10,000 is the incidence of LMS in the entire population of women, meaning that for every 10,000 women in the US (or elsewhere) 1 will have LMS. This is a very different number than will concern women with fibroids. Although many women will have some fibroids in their lifetime (77% of women by age 50), only a small minority (20%) will ever need treatment. For these women who have symptoms bothersome enough to need treatment for fibroids (medication, surgery, UAE, HIFU), the risk of having LMS had been previously been stated as 1 in 1,332, based on a study we published in 1994. So, that’s the first difference: 1 in 10,000 women in the entire population versus 1 in 1332 women who actually have fibroids and need surgery because of fibroids.
He also added:
Let me say this clearly: any study of surgery for fibroids where no LMS was found was excluded from the FDA calculation! This is a very large number of studies since LMS is a very rare disease and is infrequently found.
Dr. Pritts looked at ALL articles where surgery was performed for fibroids and the pathology of all the removed tissue was both analyzed and reported in the paper. So, studies where the incidence of LMS was “0″ were included, as they should be.
To read Dr. Parker’s full post and other information, please click here
This very thing happened to a doctor in Boston, Amy Reed, which is how this whole debate began.
She and her husband have been on a campaign to stop (even if temporarily) the use of power morcellators in fibroid surgeries. Several hospitals in the Boston area limited the use of mocellation (with bag only) shortly after she went public with her story and her concerns. Later, they enacted a full moratorium on morcellators.
So where do I stand on this issue? I wouldn’t choose to have my fibroids or a hysterectomy dealt with by power morcellation. Why? I wouldn’t want to take the additional risk that I could spread an un detected cancer through my body. Surgery is risky enough. Even though the risk is low (less than 1%), its just not a chance I would be willing to take. The stakes are too high for me.
HOWEVER, I will say I believe that more research is needed before completely banning its use. Since this has become an issue, several women have come forward to say they now have stage 4 cancer, and some have died (obviously their families speak for them) as a result of power morcellation spreading undetected cancerous tissue throughout their abdomen.
I think the patient, should have the ultimate say in the type of procedure until there is definitive proof on the risk. There should be a way to test before having surgery to see if leiomyosarcomas are present. This way, the patient and doctor can make a safe surgical treatment decision. I’m an advocate of “My body, my decision” on medical issues anyway. As a patient, you have to ask all the questions, get as many informed, educated opinions and make the best decision for you, whether it’s for allergy pills or a surgical procedure. You have the right to make the decision you believe is best for your body and health that you are most comfortable with.
The fear for some women and doctors, is that options will be limited if the power morcellator is no longer available. Especially for those who face hysterectomy. Again, I say choice is key. More research and ways to pre screen for cancer can make this choice easier for patient and doctor.
Which leads to the question I’ve had for a while: Why isn’t there more fibroid research?
So, what say you?
Would you choose this method for your surgery?
Have you had a myomectomy or hysterectomy using power mocellation?
For me, the 24 hours immediately following my surgery was a bit blurry. I still had all types of sedatives and anesthesia in my body, plus some percocet. Oddly I was wide awake at 3:00am for about 3 hours the first night. (which is when the above Instagram post happened)
The basics are this: You will be in pain. You will need help. You will need naps. You will get bored. You will feel better every day.
Pain: Everyone is different, but for me, the first three days were moderate in terms of pain. I’d say my pain was anywhere between 7-10, and 10 only being the first 18 hours or so. If your procedure involved a full (open) or partial (a hybrid) myo where you had a 3 inch or more incision, your abdominals will be almost useless for a while and sore. Very sore. The basics of sitting up on your own, even rolling over in your bed will be pretty much impossible for the first few days. You get creative after a while and figure out how to maneuver around, but at first you’re like a little baby-unable to move without an adult to help you. Be prepared to be uncomfortable. You will be sore, inside and out. Don’t be ashamed to take the pain meds your doctor prescribes for you. (As instructed. Please do not abuse your pan medication, sis)
Coughing, sneezing, and laughing will bring discomfort. Hug a pillow tight/close to your for sneezes and coughs.
If you had a laprosopic procedure, you’ll have residual gas in your body that will make you a little uncomfortable for a few days.
I slept for about 3 hours when I first came home, and I only got up to use the bathroom walk, and take some meds. A word of caution on your first trip to the bathroom: If you had a catheter inserted your first trip will….sting a little. I’ll just leave it at that. It will pass after the second or third go.
I was sore, I had cramps, and it was difficult to move. But, you need to move.
Moving Around: I had to walk every hour or two around the apartment. This is something you will most likely be told to do regardless of the method or if you’re out patient or not. Walking helps prevent complications after your surgery. Walking helps to: 1) Clear and improve blood flow to your lungs and 2) Prevent blood clots. (More details on post surgical movement here) No ones asking you to walk a mile, but quick lap or two around your apartment or one level of your house will get the job done. It will be slow going at first, but after a day or two, you will start to move a bit better.
Appetite: I didn’t really have one for the first 3 days. When I did eat, soup, crackers and toast were plenty. Mostly I ate because I had to eat with the medicine I was taking. Your appetite will slowly increase. (vanity plus: you WILL lose weight.)
The downside was people around me were eating awesome food that I just couldn’t partake in. My family had Pizza Hut (one of my favorite things!), my mom cooked one night, and everyone sat around the table and had dinner while I laid in my bed drifting into a percocet induced sleep. I couldn’t stomach all that heavy food, but that doesn’t mean my inner fat girl wasn’t sad that she missed all the vittles.
On a related note, you won’t want to eat anything too solid because…well, it has to come out. Again, your abs will be compromised, and any straining is not recommended. Colase or other stool softener will be your friend. Many pain meds (Percocet, Vicoden, etc.) can cause constipation when taken frequently, so softeners can be a great thing to help with your visits to the bathroom.
Help: Because you’ll be in pain, and your abs will be shot, and you’ll be tired….you’ll need help. You just will. I needed help getting in and out of bed, walking, getting food, putting on lotion, doing my hair, pretty much everything. The first 3-4 days for me were when I needed the most. Because I had a hybrid procedure, and my incision was not clear across my bikini line, I think I was able to start to bounce back a little sooner. (One of the benefits of a laproscopic or hybrid procedure) My family was great, and made sure I was comfortable, made me get up to walk, brought me snacks, pretty much waited on me hand and foot. That probably won’t happen again, so I enjoyed it.
Rest: Naps are awesome no matter what. When recovering, you will need to take them more than you think. Not so much because you want to, but your body will let you know that its working hard and needs to recharge. I couldn’t even make it through a movie or more that 10 pages into a book the first few days. Listen to your body: rest when it tells you. You probably won’t get to rest like this again for a long time…maybe never, so take advantage
Boredom: After a few days, boredom/cabin fever will set in. Going from bed to couch, to bed is not that entertaining. Books, movies, and company, even Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram are great, but you start to get stir crazy after a while. For me, the mere fact that I couldn’t really go anywhere made me fidgety. Again, selfies and social media filled a lot of my bed rest time.
My recovery was pretty average I guess. I did have a high fever for 2 straight days around day 4, and went to the ER. I felt pretty miserable and sluggish. They gave me an IV and sent me to get a CT scan to make sure there was nothing going wrong. The contrast solution I had to drink (which I think they mixed with something to make it more palatable) wasn’t so bad. The machine itself was fine, I’m not claustrophobic or anything, but something about the actual scan process made me horribly nauseous! As the scan went on (probably lasted all of 1 minute), I got more and more sick. By the time I got to a point where I thought I was going to spew everywhere, it was over.
Those 2 days were probably the worst of it.
A few days later, I went for my follow up with Dr. M. Everything looked good.
The good thing was I got to spend time with my friends and family that came to help and check on me, especially my mom. We got to talk and spend time together. I got her hooked on my favorite “rachet reality show“, which I won’t name, but the fact that it comes on VH1 and can be labeled rachtet should be enough.
I got to watch a good family friend win a Tony award! In that moment, I got so excited, I kinda forgot I had surgery 2 days before. I screamed and jumped up off the couch. Damn near busted my stitches. Literally.
If you follow this blog or have even come by once to check it out, you know that one of my main objectives here is to get the Black community talking about infertility. Too often we as Black people feel the need to suffer (whatever it is) in silence, or deny that “we” have a problem, which in some cases is literally killing us. (That is a whole post by its self!)
Blackdoctor.org has a great post about Infertility in the Black community.
Not only do Black women suffer infertility like any other group, according to this piece, our rates of infertility have increased over that last few years. Yet we don’t want to talk about it because we don’t want to be judged? While you’re worried about someone judging you, the woman/ couple next to you is probably going through the same thing. Imagine if you lifted each other up instead of going through it alone?
Its hard to talk about, I know, and not everyone has the right to be up in your business, but don’t suffer in silence. There are women just like you out there. You are not alone.